Miles Away

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
You never would believe the things that I have seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked right through me, you were miles away

All my dreams, they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
I can't pretend to be someone else

Always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away
So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away
So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away

When no one is around then I have you here
I begin to see the picture, it becomes so clear
You always have the biggest heart
When we're 6.000 miles apart

Too much of no sound
Uncomfortable silence can be so loud
Those three words are never enough
When it's long distance love

Always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best, miles away
So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away
So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away

I'm alright
Don't be sorry, but it's true
When I'm gone, you realize
That I'm the best thing that happened to you

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

True That

what a waste of time
the thought crossed my mind
but i never missed a beat
cant explain the who or what i was
trying to believe
what would you do
what would you do
do you know
i once had a grip on everything
it feels better to let go

i'm not over
i'm not over you just yet
can not hide it
you're not that easy to forget
i'm not over

never took the chance
could have jumped the fence
i was scared of my own two feet
could have crossed the line
it was black and white
no contrast to be seen
what would you do
what would you do
do you know
was it all a joke
never had control
i'm not better on my own


i'm not over
i'm not over you just get
can not hide it
you're not that easy to forget
i'm not over

what a waste of time
the thought crossed my mind
cant explian this thing or what i mean
im trying to let go

i'm not over
i'm not over you just get
can not hide it
you're not that easy to forget
i'm not over

i'm not over
i'm not over you just get
can not hide it
you're not that easy to forget
i'm not over

5/09/09

ok so lately i've started talking to an old flame...i always have and always will have a soft spot for him.
but honestly, its driving me INSANE. like i mean i love talking to him. but i hateee how he has this effect over me=[ lol im not used to it. considering i literally run away from relationships. serious ones. im just not ready to be SERIOUS. i like having fun..not having to answer to anyone.
but with this one guy...ahhhh i would totally be willing to take a chill pill and settle down and have a relationship.
but i was talking to my best friend..and she said she think its probably just a 'in the moment thing'
and i think she is right.
cuz him and me ALWAYS DO THIS...we dont talk for like 3 months..and then when we finally do..its like sparks..-_-
and he lives so far away=[ but he might be coming to aruba to do his internship=D ahhhh! hahaha.
he's the guy i compare all my other lame guys to. he is COCKY COCKY COCKY..and did i mention COCKY. hahaha.
he's the good boy in front of the parents...and badddd boy in private. which is like one of the biggest turn ons for me:p
and not to mention he is the ONLY guy i have ever considered introducing to my parents. i barely ever even mention the guys that i like to my parents. thats for a good reason though...because well they dont think any guy is ever going to be good enough for me:p hahaha at least while im in aruba..and i dont blame them. GUYS HERE ARE FUGLY.STUPID.AND JUST PLAIN BORING AND LAME.
but yeah 'this guy' ahhh i've known him since i was 12...
i'll never forget how we met. i still know details from it all. haha yeah i know im a dork. but like for any other guy..its like 'um yeah how'd we meet? haha how do i know you?' lmao.
i think the reason why i probably still have a little thing for him is because HE actually tries to stay in touch.
but i felt kind of bad..cuz at times i avoid him..when i feel like we're talking too much...cuz im scared if we talk too much we'll get sick of talking to each other..so i keep my distance. IM FUCKED UP. I KNOW. ughhh.
idk. i've been thinking about him for 3 days straight now...:S its insane. lol
but yeahhh we'll see how things go. obviously nothing can happen. we're miles away.
sooo anyway im out for the night=] i'll keep you all updated with my 'oh so dramatic' life. ha!

FUCKIN AMAZING.

my god that tongue must move really fast:P hahaha.

Something To Indulge On;]

ok so everybody has their fantasies...some sweet some naughty.
here are some to think about...im going to start them off...and then finish them however you please to.
some of these could be from a girls perspective..and others from a guys perspective.
1,2,3,4= girls 5= boys

1) we're at a party, bored as hell. then you flash a devilish grin and grab my hand. 'come on,' you whisper. intrigued, i follow as you weave through the crowd to a bedroom. once the coast is clear, you pull me inside. with one hand, you lock the door behind us. with your other hand, you... [finish this fantasy]

2) you are getting dressed for a big night out and look incredible. as i ogle you from head to toe, i notice a silk tie draped over the doorknob behind you and get a very naughty idea. i pick it up, then lead you to a chair. gently, i lower you onto it and wrap the tie around your....[finish this fantasy]

3) i'm out with other people, not home to satisfy you. so you close your eyes and slide your fingers down your stomach...suddenly, a hand covers your mouth. you hear, 'don't move.' your eyes flash open. it's me, turning to face you. i say, 'i know you're upset. i'll do anything to make it up to you.' then i...[finish this fantasy]

**4) while at dinner with friends, i feel a hand under the table. you're turned away in conversation, so it cant be yours. then fingers boldly dive below my clothing. my pulse quickens. next, there's stroking, skin on skin. i'm nearly exploding when you look over. you smile deviously. then...[finish fantasy]

5) leaving a friend's place, we decide to take the stairs. as we go down, you give a come-hither motion and sprint ahead. confused, i speed up, my eyes on your ass. i almost catch up, then you stop. momentum takes over, and my body pins yours to the wall. panting, i grind into you and hold your arms back so i can...[finish this fantasy]

hope you enjoyed.

Can You Say Xsteamy? =]

Chicks Before Dicks=]

ok so this is a shout out to my baby girl=] my mamaaaa=] my future dormie=] my wifey for lifey=]

patty stephens=] 

i wish i could have all the most important girls in my life with meee. she is the only one missing. i have THE most amazing friends in the world. they're like my support through everything. i honestly don't know how im going to live without them in about a year. aahhh scares me to death. 

my cookie whores....[drum roll] gabriella krichevsky & verushka alvarez=] my mamacitaaasss. 

ahh and my baking buddies of course. lol. 

gabs i've barely known for like 2 years...but she's like my long lost sibling or something. veru & my relationship i think can probably be described as 'blood is thicker than water' 

i've known her for 10 years. she's like literally part of me. 

and i know i'll be just as close to her for years to come. 

i love all of them so fuckin much. and i have so many other amazing friends. they're my life. 

=]

<3.

[chicks before dicks yo.]